Always on mind

I will always remember today's date..

The day you left us three years ago..

I miss you alot, I have alot if things to tell you.. Do you know the day you left was my school holiday and after that was my sweet 16 birthday ??

After you left I went back school im like a zombie whoever talk to me I didnt response and my tears kept rolling down when they ask me am I okay.. I got no mood to celebrate my birthday and you miss my Graduation on seconday 4.. You didn't sign on my report book and you didn't see my grate how I did for my test..

Dad. You know how much we miss you I still stupidly ask my friend is there time machine if yes I wanna go back look for you but they told me there isn't any.. I really wanna see you in my dream I almost forget how you look..

I know you will say I'm silly I know I still have picture of you I can look at it but I scare I will forget the happy time we had when I was young...

Three years, I everyday wanna dream of you but you didnt come to my dream often even I dream of you I can't ask whatever I want cause I can't control my dream..

Dad, it's already three year how are you?? Have you miss us?? We miss you alot alot!!

Dad, if there is second chance I wanna be your daughter and I want you to enjoy your life :))

Three year ago on 8 march you left me three years later I wrote this to show how much I miss you!!

I will always remember what you tough me and i will never forget!!

Love,
Nana

Thoughts for birthday

Can I don't celebrate my birthday??
Cause I feel that I'm aging and every year my birthday wish never come true at all..

Why people love to celebrate birthday its just a simple day and it's like very normal day just that friends or family will get you a cake and a present that's all  I you tell to me only baby's and elderly celebrate birthday teenager thy do celebrate also cause its fun I do think that sometime but now I just want to stay at same age thats all..

talk about present I always want a huge Teddy bear but now no more cause it takes up lot's of space and I will get dirty easily so I really don't know what I want if can diamond ring  branded bag eg Lv Hermes  or even iPad or lumix fx77 camera :))

during birthday i always want a huge teddy bear but not now anymore cause it will take up lots if space and it's not cheap also plus it get dirty easily I know things it's hard to get it cause its ex but if yes I wanna get a driving license I really do want to get one :))

I know I can't get a diamond ring Lv , hermes bag but at least camera!? Lols ..

Well i want a Lv bag , Hermes bag Winnie the pooh cake cause i know mostly of the things i can't get it so I want to eat it hahaha I know the cake has lots if cream and I don't really like cream and yes friend will use the cream to help me do facial and flour and egg to make a cake Lols ..

please do it when I'm 21st not 19th Okays I hate cream as they are oily and it's smelly when it got on your shirt and you didn't wash it immediate hahaha..

P/S: I haven think of what I want yet:))

Love 
 nana 