Always on mind

I will always remember today's date..

The day you left us three years ago..

I miss you alot, I have alot if things to tell you.. Do you know the day you left was my school holiday and after that was my sweet 16 birthday ??

After you left I went back school im like a zombie whoever talk to me I didnt response and my tears kept rolling down when they ask me am I okay.. I got no mood to celebrate my birthday and you miss my Graduation on seconday 4.. You didn't sign on my report book and you didn't see my grate how I did for my test..

Dad. You know how much we miss you I still stupidly ask my friend is there time machine if yes I wanna go back look for you but they told me there isn't any.. I really wanna see you in my dream I almost forget how you look..

I know you will say I'm silly I know I still have picture of you I can look at it but I scare I will forget the happy time we had when I was young...

Three years, I everyday wanna dream of you but you didnt come to my dream often even I dream of you I can't ask whatever I want cause I can't control my dream..

Dad, it's already three year how are you?? Have you miss us?? We miss you alot alot!!

Dad, if there is second chance I wanna be your daughter and I want you to enjoy your life :))

Three year ago on 8 march you left me three years later I wrote this to show how much I miss you!!

I will always remember what you tough me and i will never forget!!

Love,
Nana

Thoughts for birthday

Can I don't celebrate my birthday??
Cause I feel that I'm aging and every year my birthday wish never come true at all..

Why people love to celebrate birthday its just a simple day and it's like very normal day just that friends or family will get you a cake and a present that's all  I you tell to me only baby's and elderly celebrate birthday teenager thy do celebrate also cause its fun I do think that sometime but now I just want to stay at same age thats all..

talk about present I always want a huge Teddy bear but now no more cause it takes up lot's of space and I will get dirty easily so I really don't know what I want if can diamond ring  branded bag eg Lv Hermes  or even iPad or lumix fx77 camera :))

during birthday i always want a huge teddy bear but not now anymore cause it will take up lots if space and it's not cheap also plus it get dirty easily I know things it's hard to get it cause its ex but if yes I wanna get a driving license I really do want to get one :))

I know I can't get a diamond ring Lv , hermes bag but at least camera!? Lols ..

Well i want a Lv bag , Hermes bag Winnie the pooh cake cause i know mostly of the things i can't get it so I want to eat it hahaha I know the cake has lots if cream and I don't really like cream and yes friend will use the cream to help me do facial and flour and egg to make a cake Lols ..

please do it when I'm 21st not 19th Okays I hate cream as they are oily and it's smelly when it got on your shirt and you didn't wash it immediate hahaha..

P/S: I haven think of what I want yet:))

Love 
 nana 

I MUST SLIM DOWN!!

What the hack!!! I have been put on weight for eatting to much ! GREAT huh!!

Piss me off!! I WANNA SLIM DOWN!!! Argh!!!

I had been saying i wanna slim down for years and ya i haven okyas!! Irritating!!

Argh!! No matter what i need slim down now and must do it asap!!

Too fat not good!!!

AHHHHHHHH!!!


IMMA SO PISS OFF BY MY OWN!!

Edited.

I hate being FAT!! Argh!

Firstly, Hard to buy clothes! ( That's happen every year during CNY, Although there is more shop selling S-XXXXXXXXXXXXL clothes still very hard to buy those pretty wants)

Secondly, People may think you sweat alot and smelly!! Fuck you okays, weather so HOT you don't sweat and please not all FAT PEOPLE IS SMELLY OKAYS! IF YOU WANNA SAY PEOPLE SMELLY DO CHECK DO YOU SMELL NICE!! TSK!!!!!!!

Thirdly, They think you are pregnant! COCK EYE OF YOU ALL FAT PREGNANT YOU BLIND ISIT? FAT AND PREGNANT ALSO CAN"T TELL!!

Fourthly, When we go out with friends or family they order alot of food and you order a small cake the waiter will think the food goes to you and cake go to your friend! angry ttm! ( This don't happen to me larrhs)

See.. So many to say.. Really horrible and one more guys like to go on girls who is slim and pretty those fat want sorry bye bye! What the hell! Fat can't date guys isit? Must be pretty and slim mehhs... Hais... SAD!!

Let me make myself clear!

To the guys i use to like, GET THIS CLEAR!!!

I like you cause i think you are good but sorry you ain't and i also don't know why i like you also... When you get to know i like you and the reaction you had is Oh.. Really but i don't like you or I think i'm not prepare for it!! You think i stupid? The reason is I"M FAT!!
FORGET IT don't need say till so nice horrhs! Don't like say don't like no big deal one word give you FRECK YOU!!!! Get this clear now!! You will get KAMA by saying/laughing at FAT PEOPLE okays Not now but soon or later! YOU ! YES YOU JUST WAIT AND SEE!!!
I'M GONNA GO ON DIET AND SHOW YOU THAT ALTHOUGH I'M FAT I STILL CAN SLIM DOWN OKAYS IS THAT I WANT TO WORK HARD OR NOT.. YOU WANNA LAUGHT GO AHEAD KAMA IS WAITING FOR YOU!!

I told my friend i wanna play those guy who look down on me when i'm fat but i get to know one thing from my friend just wait and see kama will find them soon or later and we will be the want seeing the show!

SO I MUST SLIM DOWN!!! MUST

P/S : I had been saying for years i wanna slim down and im still fat thanks to the good food! Must slim down lorrhs! If not CNY so people mouth will say im fat non-stop!!! :))

How i wish i could this would happen..

How i wish i can don't celebrate birthday!! Stay at the same age every year.:))

But its IMPOSSIBLE! We can't stop the age it will keep on adding one year by one year!

I really wanted to stay at 18 forever! Hahahas, cause i don't wish to see so much candle on the cake and people asking how old are you. As we know age is girls biggest secret!

If imma gonna celebrate my birthday i would just tell them that please dont put happy 18,19,20,21 ect birthday on the cake cause everyone will know how old are you! Angry ttm! Can i have a cake on my birthday and say Happy 18th birthday even if imma 19 or 20... Heehees..

If its possible i also want my look to stay forever young! Have those youngster look even my age reach early 20s or late 20s i had seen a taiwan show a 41 years old auntie looks like 20 plus only hello what on earth she did to have such youngster look??? Botox? (hmmm.. maybe)

I also want to have this kind of look when i grow older hahas! So people won't know who old are you! But there is also bad cause if you are gonna watch a movie rated M18 or R21 they will ask you this question: Can i check your i/c please? dispite telling them you are already either 18 or 21 they still wanna check as your look doesn't show! Hahahas..

There is good and bad lorrhs.. Good is people don't know your age bad is when you wanna watch rated movie your i/c must be on hand to let them check! HAHAHAS!!

This year my birthday, I don't know what will i get!
Last year went sakae sushi (at west mall) with my friend and dinner at lai lai ( at jurong point ) with my family i was dame full and i still choose to eat alot luck never throw out! phew!
i ate the cake twice and i received ang bao too!! Heehee.. Last year was lucky cause just nice my birthday was after CNY so i got extra ang bao from my aunties and my sis! HEEHEEs...

This year....... Maybe NOTHING I GUESS! hahahs...

Delay CNY Post

Yoyoyo.. Yes i had been MIA for awhile.. LOSL...



I wanted to blog but no time and there is many things i wanna say but it hard to turn it in to words and type out. Imma kinda lazy to type it out cause its super long and it might be bored after reading such along post....

Let me make myself clear of what i wanna blog about first... Let's talk about CNY first...

CNY Eve..

As usuall went over to my elder sister house for steamboat, this had been a habit after my dad was no longer around 3 years ago.. When my dad's around he will call up all my uncles and aunties to come over to my house for dinner and have a chit-chat section as if its the first day of new year although its just the eve only.. Everyone came over and ate the dinner happily and watch television... And thats the time my parents had to prepare alot of food for steamboat and i always ate alot and i'm the last to finish all the food hahas.. Cause they tell me the nicer part of steamboat is the last part 好料沉锅底 so i ate super slow and i'm always super full after that!! LOSL.. But now no more cause all my realitive had went over to my second uncle house for dinner as my dad wasn't around anymore.. I really miss the time whereby everyone came over and eat dinner and with my dad's around:)) This could only be part of my memories now.. SO yes dinner at my elder sister house was good, then after dinner rest for awhile the we started to eat yu sheng and drink red wine and then my mum say that she wanna go home so we took the cab back to my house..

Yes reach home, so much things to do.. Change bedsheet and mop the floor and do the last touch up before everyone came over the next day.. Then we went over to my second sister house lucky she just stay nearby so my mum and i walk over there and i help my sis do her mendicure cause the want we did before had drop off so we diy our nails, my nephew wanted to do it also but too bad he can't cause he is a boy. LOL and my sis don't allow him to do!! So after that my mum and i stay over at my second sister house cause i'm very lazy and my mum is tired to walk back.. My nephew was dame happy cause we are staying over... LOSL

CNY First day!!!

Wake up by my sis and the best thing is I'M HAVE SORE THROAT and my voice is dame horrible!! Eat alot of sweet to cure it but it don't really work then my sis prepare a cup of honey for me to drink but its helpless lorrhs! Then when i'm home my mum prepare some instend chinese herb for me to drink i drink about 4 cup in a day and i keep eatting sweet end up still the same i can't talk for long cause i will lose my voice if i talk to much but no choice have to talk cause when people came over we had to say happy new year.. so bo bian talk and talk my voice become more worst.. :((

CNY Second day!!

Yes my voice get abit better abit!! Then my second uncle family came over to my house and so dose my sister all come back also hahas:)) Went over to my great-grandaunt house to visit her and then went over to my second sis house for mahjong secssion! LOLS.. I didn't play much i only play three round lols the rest is my sis and bro-in-law play.. HAHAHAs...

Ohhhs i have to mention this! My uncle and auntie from my mother side want came to my house, erm fyi i don't talk alot to them lorrhs and they will always ask lots and lots of question as me am i studying or working and the best part i do is I SMILE and walk away letting my mum handle them! I not in mood to talk to them also hahas...

Smile is the best way to answer question whereby you don't wish to say it or explain !

While this year new year nothing special lorrhs like every empty many people in facebook say that there is like no new year mood so boring... LOSL to me alright lorrhs cause new year is the day everyone came over to your house or you went over to people house and chit-chat then give ang bao the the kids thats all.. And kids just happily collecting it to earn extra money during new year..

Hmm.. Really nothing much happen during new year expect that I'M HAVING SORE THROAT! tsk!! WHY ME??? Horrible ttm!!

Try to blog again tomorrow! :))